Selling the house and the meager inheritance is helpful financially. The viewing is Wednesday and I don’t feel good about it, kinda sad, broken. But luckily I’m back home, with tons of friends and family that have been rock solid supports.

My mom passed away last Tuesday. I kinda had a breakdown a few weeks ago and needed a “rest”. I had lost my job, my mom to dementia, and my therapist all in one year and I couldn’t handle all that all at once. I feel better but.

The Question - Mac Miller feat. lol Wayne

*What am I doin here?*

*The Question: What Am I doin here?*

The Question - Mac Miller feat. Lil Wayne

We’ve decided not to put a feeding tube in mom’s belly, letting her pass away, with Hospice making her comfortable these last few weeks. The prognosis is bad but I still have memories. My mom’s quick wit was unmatched.

Playing around with Home Assistant and wow. More to come.

๐ŸŽ™Really great guided meditation with Audible

Center Yourself

๐Ÿˆ Buckeyes

We were up 21 at half time but with this defense, no lead is safe, I already suffer from Chronic Anxiety Disorder so I’m not watching. Lol. Will check score at midnight

The Photos widget picking some happier times.

First photo I am 12, the tall girl. Second photo I am 29.

I bought a couple plugins and have download a bunch of LUTs but I’m pretty proud of this color grade for the Tiff Talks Tech project I’m no longer working on. Getting better!

I’ve been sitting on the project since last year but as I get acquainted with Final Cut Pro X, and life getting shutdown and me feeling morose, I’ve decided to edit it.

I’ve shot some footage for YouTube channels I’ve since deleted and archived. But I have a project of my move from Felton Lofts to my current place. It was like going from abject poverty and working my way out of it, capturing that moment.

Doing video editing is cathartic to me. My life lately has been extremely difficult and with my mom’s health getting worse and worse after her knee replacement I’m just…angry. So I’m diving into video editing.

๐ŸŽถ Listening to: Mac Miller

Maybe you shouldn’t have tried that purple drank Mac. RIP, kid.

๐ŸŒฒ # Nighttime Yule Log ๐Ÿชต

Podcasts, Yule logs, and sleep.


Learning to pilot drones for some film projects once we find some sort of normalcy. Bought two nice drones for sub $200. ๐Ÿ‘ฉ๐Ÿฝโ€โœˆ๏ธโœˆ๏ธ

โšพ๏ธ Listening to: 755 is Real

Love listening to DOB and O’Flaherty.

755 is Real

๐ŸŽฎ Now Playing: Assassin’s Creed Ezio Trilogy

After a long, 4 hour code sesh, it was great to relax to a game. But those graphics ๐Ÿ˜‚

๐ŸŽฎ Now Playing: The Assassin’s Creed Elio Trilogy

I was watching a Twitch stream on the PS4 while it downloaded. A little bias lighting and eSports makes for a good night.

๐Ÿ“ธ Fruit & Yogurt


Financing the new 12 Pro with a lower down payment than past years. Was supposed to ship on Nov 27th but will be here tomorrow. Quite chuffed.

I also ordered an Echo Show 8 as it was on sale, half off. It too was backordered. Putting it in the kitchen for recipes and music.

Ordered a new iPhone 12 Pro, silver/white 256gb. I’m upgrading from the gold XS Max 256gb. Going smaller this time. I ordered on the 4th from T-Mobile and it was backordered until the 27th. My case is coming today.

๐Ÿ“บ Watching…

High Score on Netflix